today morning wwent to find mr ong my physics tutor for extra lessons. pretty efficient I would say. 2 hours with him seem to be more effective than 2 days of mindless wandering in physics wonderland. after that I went joggin again. quite pleased that I managed to jog 3 times this week, but today I only did 2 rounds as I started gettin some kinda chest pains at the end of the 2nd round. Still rmb last time got dis HC guy hu was super fit n collasped n died while jogging. Anyway running is good. helps you burn fats n keep in shape. sure beats stoning in front of the com, which will make u fat. I dun wanna turn into some disgusting fat guy whose neck cannot be differentiated from the head. That isn't very appealing.

The following is gonna be pretty long-winded but I know sure have some ppl read one.

I decided to remove the previous entry which had some uncensored vulgarities for several reasons. Firstly, it ain't nice to say vulgarities. Secondly, I realised there isn't any point in getting angry. I mean, I dun see how tt will solve anything or get me anywhere. In fact, if a get so angry I will simply be wasting my own time and effort thinking about some unhappy stuff. So why bother? I mean there are things I should be happy about. Always look on the bright side. For example, I am glad I have learnt a pretty good lesson for once. Sure it came at a very bad time when block test are juz round the corner, and I am someone who sometimes get pretty badly affected by such stuff, but then again, this could have happened on the eve of A-lvls and then I would be really screwed. I used to think tt during my course of research into WW2 due to my hobby, I had seen enough of human nature, and now I truely experience human nature. Now this is the real thing, at last I know how people sometimes can be. Reading up on the holocaust or japanese atrocities of war had made me think I knew us humans too well. How naive I can get. But well to experience it firsthand I am glad now for once I have learnt something, a very good lesson that I could take with me when I go out and work. thanks for your wonderful lesson, even though you are not my friends, yet you taught me a lesson I think i'll never forget.

However, I have to admit I am abit disappointed though as to the cowardice of talking behind one's back. But then again, who isn't guilty? I am too. I admit occasionally I make fun of emmeline's bimboness though it is truely unintentional, always make fun of pei yiing but tt's because all the class guys do it and sometimes we realli cannot stand her.(ok lah she's nice occasionally) But I dun see the logic behind this unwarranted attack. Then again, I should have known better, actually there were clues already in place. The attitude, the hideous fake smile, damn I was blind. Should have seen it coming. Oh well now least I have learnt a good lesson. You can never know a person well enough. The only person tt I can trust 100% would have to be myself. I'm turning cynical, but juz how u hafta be to survive nowadays. wake up man, its not a sweet sweet world out there. "no one dies a virgin, cuz in the end life screws us all" I think it should be changed into "no one dies a virgin, cuz in the end some backstabber screws us all".
And you thought this only happens in reality shows.