I always wonder if things happen for a reason. Why I had to fall sick on the week before Army half marathon. All the effort put into preparing for it, all the km ran, all wasted to some extent. its just not fair. next year i heard my unit is involved in organising the event again, considering we did it lyk last year already. don't the army have more units? tt day when i parents forbid me from running i was so upset. its not their fault, they are just being concerned with my health. but i felt so upset, the worse thing is i dunno who or what to be angry with. fate, for being so cruel, or myself, for being weak and falling sick.

after resting over the weekend i kinda calmed down and thought it over. there's no point in getting angry over this. i shan't put all the running effort to waste and i will continue running to keep up my fitness and stamina.i can always take part some time in the future. right now i ought to focus on the upcoming ippt. let's hope i can get silver.

whenever i feel troubled i think back to a book i read recently, the diary of anne frank. this heartwarming diary kept by a dutch girl during world war two is so well written, full of depth and maturity and is truely an inspiration. to think she was only 14. I am full of admiration and respect for her.

yesterday met up with 75 ppl for a farewell dinner for liyu who's going to usa to study. all the best liyu! everyone was talking about uni and i kept having the feeling that times passes realli fast. all the girls and some of the med boys are all going of to uni liao. in fact most already started lessons. i can't believed they already started mugging so early on, like one week into uni. scary. anyway its just great to be out with the 75 ppl. those 2 years in hc were probably the best in my life so far. thinking back always brings back wonderful memories of all the fun things we did... way to many to describe. even though its onli been like 8 months since i left jc but i miss jc life so much. all the descriptions of uni being so much like jc makes me wanna go off to uni as soon as possible.

then again, army life isn't tt bad. being a enlisted men isn't always all that bad i guess, esp when there are little tough trainings and plenty of time for leisure activities. love playing basketball and badminton these days. recently i've picked up reading and just finished dan brown's angels and demons. right now its anne frank's diary, which i find it to be quite a unique read. being a teenager like she is, there are many things i can come find in common between herand me. and yet i also can feel her woes and frustrations of the war, being all locked up in the hiding place, living in constant stress and fear. apart from her diary, i've dug up alot of other old books in my house and plan to read through most of them. guess i'm pretty lucky to have so much free time to myself. but then again being a enlisted men isn't all that good. try having to cope with selfish ungrateful superiors (not all are so though) who probably just see us as stepping stones to their promotions, coupled with SAF's inefficiency and sometimes its enough to make your blood boil. recently i discovered several strands of white hair on my head. must the stresses of army life.

ndp is finally over! liyu, your welcome! its always nice to have an appreciative audience. after all we trained so hard for ndp. i think being in the marching contingent is really an amazing experience, but speaking of ndp makes my real angry. after ndp they can remember everything like asking us to clean rifles, making sure we return everything we used in the parade, but they so conviently forgot the one thing, which is off days! 2 measly off days! one is already deducted for the thurs after ndp when that thurs was supposed to be a given off. this really sucks. i dun even wanna think about it. thinking about ndp just spoils my mood for the whole day. i do hope those ungrateful superiors will get their retribution someday. on the bright side, my face actually appeared on the ndp show and the next days newspapers too! what a cool way to remember ndp eh?

realli love the movie silent hill suddenly. the music is simply way too cool and i wanna play the game, even though i'll probably be freaked out. hmm i'm now considering a change of the blog layout to a silent hill themed one.