素胚勾勒出青花 筆鋒濃轉淡
瓶身描繪的牡丹 一如妳初妝
冉冉檀香透過窗 心事我了然
宣紙上走筆至此擱一半

釉色渲染仕女圖 韻味被私藏
而妳嫣然的一笑 如含苞待放
妳的美一縷飄散
去到我去不了的地方

天青色等煙雨 而我在等妳
炊煙裊裊昇起 隔江千萬里
在瓶底書漢隸 仿前朝的飄逸
就當我為遇見妳伏筆

天青色等煙雨 而我在等妳
月色被打撈起 暈開了結局
如傳世的青花瓷 自顧自美麗
妳眼帶笑意

色白花青的錦鯉 躍然於碗底
臨摹宋體落款時 卻惦記著妳
妳隱藏在窯燒裡 千年的秘密
極細膩猶如繡花針落地

簾外芭蕉惹驟雨 門環惹銅綠
而我路過那江南小鎮 惹了妳
在潑墨山水畫裡
妳從墨色深處被隱去

天青色等煙雨 而我在等妳
炊煙裊裊昇起 隔江千萬里
在瓶底書漢隸 仿前朝的飄逸
就當我為遇見妳伏筆

天青色等煙雨 而我在等妳
月色被打撈起 暈開了結局
如傳世的青花瓷 自顧自美麗
妳眼帶笑意

翻着我们的照片　想念若隐若现　去年的冬天　我们笑得很甜
看着你哭泣的脸　对着我说再见　来不及听见　你已走得很远

也许你已经放弃我　也许已经很难回头
我知道是自己错过　请再给我一个理由说你不爱我

就算是我不懂　能不能原谅我　请不要把分手　当作你的请求
我知道坚持要走　是你受伤的借口　请你回头　我会陪你　一直走到最后

就算没有结果　我也能够承受　我知道你的痛　是我给的承诺
你说给过我纵容　沉默是因为包容　如果要走　请你记得我

如果难过　请你忘了我

Today is brenda's 21st. Happy birthday brenda! anyway we kinda caught her off suprise yesterday night in carlton park and she got seriously water-bombed and creamed. poor girl had whipped cream all over her hair and was utterly drenched. The whole plan to suprise her was pretty well executed, except that they had to get people to carry ALL the water bombs from swanston to carlton park, effectively a 10-15 minute walk. Yours truely happened to be the only guy there, and ended up carrying huge amounts of water bombs. My hands wouldn't stop shaking till this morning after that. Good training tho. maybe I'll be able to carry sheep easier next time.

The guys got me to finish about half a bottle of wine in a attempt to get me drunk. Wine taste awful. Seriously alcohol mostly taste awful to me. I would only drink to get high, which I kinda was when I finished half a bottle. Luckily ava was there to walk home with me. She was nice enough to sit with me outside college to talk for like a whole hour probably. In my high state I probably just rambled on and on about all my problems. I'm really glad I have such good friends around who are always willing to lend a listening ear.

Suddenly i keep listening to chinese music. I am kinda getting sick of all the english songs in my ipod for some reason. Its mainly Jay Chou's songs, since hes so talented. Classically trained, he fuses asian and western music styles together, which I think is really cool and unique from alot of the other chinese singers out there.

I guess its always important to remember your roots in some way. Like I think it would be really sad for a chinese to be not able to speak chinese or any chinese dialect. Glad I haven't lost that. I'm happy that speaking chinese still comes naturally to me even though I speak alot of english and watch alot of english shows nowadays. Its interesting that I am so exposed to western culture, but yet I am still familar with some aspects of chinese culture. Both cultures have their good points that are worth assimilating.

Better get back to studying. Haven't been very productive recently. On a side note though, NO MORE PRACTICALS! YAY!

Just as the title says.

Stop making yourself miserable.

Its only been a week.

oh man i overslept on tuesday and missed chem prac. Its only 3 percent so its not so bad, but I really disturbed by the fact that I have no memory of the alarm ever ringing at all. Thats worrying. Imagine missing exams. Not to mention that now I'm staying in college I gotta work extra hard to get really good grades in order to get a scholarship to lessen my parents burden.

Yesterday was valedictory dinner. wasn't really looking forward to sitting with complete strangers, but least shelia the 2nd yr vet student sat next to me and I kinda had someone to talk to.

The turn after that was pretty ok, but it kinda burned a whole in my pocket. Oh well its necessary I guess. Thats why being a guy sucks sometimes. gotta buy drinks for all the girls. thank god the drinks were dirt cheap. My alcohol tolerence has really gone up man. 3 vodka cruizers and 2 glasses of wine later and I'm only starting to feel marginally high. During the pre-vet party 3 bottles of beer was enough to make me a happy man.

anyway i'm really starting to like running now. Started listening to my ipod while running these days. The combination of music, running and fresh air is therapeutic. But my stamina is still bad. nothing like the army days where 10km was normal. gonna go full steam after friday to prepare for exams. this exams is gonna be a swift one.

yesterday wasn't that bad. In fact, it was good. I was so excited that I couldn't fall asleep for quite a while which really annoyed me. This problem I have with sleeping has been bugging me for years. But then again, considering the chain of events that happened last night, it would be hardly suprising that I lost sleep. So much happened in one night that its still a little hard to settle back into reality.

Here's what the reality looks like: Overnight I have gone from not staying to college to staying in college for another year. I will have to put up with another year of crappy college food, crappy college internet, crazy college prices, crazy college people (not everyone though), stupid work scheme, stupid high table and so much more. But I guess its all worth it.

Lets hope vet school can keep me busy enough that I won't think too much about all the bad things about college. Its just another year, how bad could it be? I mean I've survived 2 years in a dump known as the army, and this isn't as bad as that one, except the food though. Honestly army food is better than college food. And food is really important. But still, its not that bad. I just think back to what made me stay on and I don't feel so bad anymore.

Well, theres so much work to do, in so many ways. Assignment in 2 days, test in 5 days, Exams in 4 weeks, plus much much more as always. Work is neverending. Bring it on.

This is it. There will be no turning back. I really want to believe that it will work, but I need to be prepared for the worst. Its the biggest thing I've ever done so far. Probably gonna lost alot of sleep tonight. Most guys won't admit this, but I am scared. I keep watching that one scene from greys anatomy (season 2 ep 5) where meredith ask derek to choose her over addison. It really warmths my heart watching that scene.

Meredith Grey: I lied. I'm not out of this relationship. I'm in. I'm so in its humiliating. Okay, here it is, your choice... it's simple, her or me, and I'm sure she is really great. But Derek, I love you, in a really, really big pretend to like your taste in music, let you eat the last piece of cheesecake, hold a radio over my head outside your window, unfortunate way that makes me hate you, love you. So pick me, choose me, love me.

That is one of the best scenes in greys anatomy. Touching, heartfelt confession. It's encouraging.

Tmr could be the really big day. Lets hope things will work out. Whatever happens life still goes on. I still have my friends, I still have vet school. It can't be that bad. But I really want it to work. Hopefully it'll make this lousy semester become a really good one. I really want it to. I've gave it so much thought and it can no longer wait. Not till end of exams. sundays the day.

Last night was terrible. Lay in bed for at least 2 hours, possibly more. There's just so much going through my head. Housing, studies, assignments, seminars, pracs, and much much more.

This sem has been a really bad semester so far. Wish it was more like last sem, when life was so much happier. But I wun wanna go back in time though. I just want to get this sem done and over with. Least the exams end fast. I hope it'll end on a high note. Maybe it will, I hope it will.

Saturday was sg day though. Got to taste some sg food finally. it was pretty authentic. though everyone had to queue super long to get measly portions. in singapore you can just go to any hawker centre and get the same food with a much bigger serving. of course though, food at sg day was free! and there were alot of freebies too, like kaya and some nasi
goreng paste. it was amazing to see combat rations and camo creme being given out too! i would never touch those again man.

Finally decided to do something about it. The planning has begin. 6 more weeks till the big day. Lets hope things work out.