This is it. There will be no turning back. I really want to believe that it will work, but I need to be prepared for the worst. Its the biggest thing I've ever done so far. Probably gonna lost alot of sleep tonight. Most guys won't admit this, but I am scared. I keep watching that one scene from greys anatomy (season 2 ep 5) where meredith ask derek to choose her over addison. It really warmths my heart watching that scene.

Meredith Grey: I lied. I'm not out of this relationship. I'm in. I'm so in its humiliating. Okay, here it is, your choice... it's simple, her or me, and I'm sure she is really great. But Derek, I love you, in a really, really big pretend to like your taste in music, let you eat the last piece of cheesecake, hold a radio over my head outside your window, unfortunate way that makes me hate you, love you. So pick me, choose me, love me.

That is one of the best scenes in greys anatomy. Touching, heartfelt confession. It's encouraging.